{"id":237,"date":"2011-06-04T11:25:46","date_gmt":"2011-06-04T16:25:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.autumncalvert.com\/?p=237"},"modified":"2012-02-09T20:52:01","modified_gmt":"2012-02-10T02:52:01","slug":"the-mountain","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.autumncalvert.com\/home\/the-mountain\/","title":{"rendered":"The Mountain"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u201cSon, we have talked about this!\u00a0 Do not play with the trash can lid!\u00a0 Come on, lets play with your cars.\u201d\u00a0 As usual, Asher turns around and goes right back to the trash can, and the conversation begins again.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Though my child is much like others in that he continually falls into temptation and fails to resist, he has always seemed a bit different.\u00a0 When all the other kids his age were turning over and trying to crawl, he was perfectly satisfied to lie on the floor and stare at the lights.\u00a0 When his peers began to crawl and pull up, he was content to push with his legs and scoot across the floor on the back of his head.\u00a0 He would not\u00a0even pull up to a sitting position on his own till he was 12 months.\u00a0 At 14 months, he had gained the ability to scoot across the floor on his booty.\u00a0 He had finally mastered pulling himself to a standing position in his crib.<\/span><\/p>\n

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By his second Christmas, he began to toddle about most uncertainly.\u00a0 At 17 months, he was finally walking.\u00a0 We would silently giggle at his gait, frequently stating he looked like Fred Sanford.\u00a0 It was cute.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Then, the falls started.\u00a0 One big bad one a week causing a monster sized goose egg on his forehead.\u00a0 Same spot every time.\u00a0 His new doctor had consistently commented on his head size.\u00a0 After all of the falling down, strange gait, and overall wobbly walking motion, she scheduled an MRI.<\/span><\/p>\n

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This week, we went in for the test.\u00a0 Of corse, a 19 month old and a MRI machine are not a match made in heaven.\u00a0 For the test, they had to sedate him.\u00a0 I kept telling him it would be ok, and that the drugs they would give him would just make him very sleepy.\u00a0 One mommy, one daddy, and 3 nurses held him down for the IV.\u00a0 He may be a bit behind in some things, but that boy has one serious fighting spirit.<\/span><\/p>\n

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After the test, Asher woke up loopy.\u00a0 It was kind of funny the way he was playing with the nurse\u2019s name badge though she insisted he stop.\u00a0 I held him in my arms and waited until they said it was time to go home.<\/span><\/p>\n

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A couple of days later, I called the doctor to see if they had the results.\u00a0 I was not expecting the news:\u00a0 he has a cyst on his right temporal lobe and a small amount of water on his brain.\u00a0 WHAT????????\u00a0 This test was supposed to come back NORMAL!!\u00a0 I asked a few questions to the doctor, told her thank you, hung up, and called my husband.<\/span><\/p>\n

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If you have ever been sucker punched in the stomach, you will understand the feeling I had when they told me the results.\u00a0 I wanted to throw up, scream, cry, and pitch a justified fit.\u00a0 However, the only thing I could do was dial my husband\u2019s phone number.\u00a0 I held it together for maybe 3 minutes before the tears came.\u00a0 I called my sister and she kept saying, \u201cAutumn!\u00a0 Calm down!\u00a0 I can\u2019t understand you!\u201d\u00a0 It is all consuming fear.\u00a0 It is just all consuming.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Once I pulled myself together, my husband had gotten home from work.\u00a0 \u201cI\u2019m going to the store to get diapers.\u201d\u00a0 I drove along in a numb state.\u00a0 At the grocery store, I pushed my cart to the familiar aisle, stared at the diapers, and pushed back the tears.\u00a0 \u201cAutumn, do not loose it in the grocery store!!\u00a0 You have to see these people all of the time!!\u00a0 HOLD IT TOGETHER!!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

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I left\u00a0 the grocery store, made it home, walked inside, and crumbled to pieces in my husband\u2019s arms.\u00a0 How could my precious little boy have something growing in his brain that should not be there?\u00a0 I wanted to fix it.\u00a0 I wished I had the power to reach into his head and remove that damned cyst and water so he would be ok.\u00a0 But, I couldn\u2019t.\u00a0 All I could do was stand there.\u00a0 \u201cFunction, Autumn…YOU HAVE TO FUNCTION!\u201d\u00a0 And, so I did with the added weight of a rock in my gut and a knot in my throat.<\/span><\/p>\n

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At this point, we were uncertain of whether the cyst was benign or malignant.\u00a0 We did not know what it meant as far as his development was concerned.\u00a0 All we knew was the basics, and the basics were just not good enough.<\/span><\/p>\n

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The next morning, my very distressed husband called a friend who is a neurologist.\u00a0 He was so kind.\u00a0 This wonderful doctor actually pulled the MRI results, read them, and called my husband to tell him the cyst was not malignant.\u00a0 Praise God!!!\u00a0 He also stated the water around his brain could be causing the developmental delays, but there wasn\u2019t enough to warrant a stint.\u00a0 However, Asher\u2019s neurologist would have to read the MRI himself to decide.\u00a0 We still have to wait till the end of June to find out.<\/span><\/p>\n

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In the meantime, Asher had a follow-up visit with this primary doctor to check his ears.\u00a0 We talked for a while and made tons of appointments to help out my little man.\u00a0 First one was the ENT.\u00a0 After our visit there, the ENT decides Ash needs tubes.\u00a0 This news seemed like rose petals and bon-fire songs compared to earlier in the week.<\/span><\/p>\n

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So, now, we just push forward with doctors appointments for vision, hearing, early intervention, neurologists, and out patient surgery.<\/span><\/p>\n

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My beautiful, wonderful, sometimes sneaky little boy is the highlight to my life.\u00a0 He is the underscore to my lovely poems.\u00a0 He is the smile on my face, and sometimes, the roll of my eyes.\u00a0 My husband and I will push down the mountains if it means he can live a happy and healthy life.\u00a0 Though we will have to call in the reserves to help us push and call on God to give us the strength and faith to keep going, those damn mountains are coming down!\u00a0 Of this, I am quite certain.<\/span><\/p>\n

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